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Post by JediAmy on May 23, 2008 6:02:20 GMT -5
I just wanted to drop in and say hello to everyone. I've been so totally out of it this past year. So many things have changed in my life since last May, I really need to read through all the posts and catch up.
I am still here, still have the 'Fan Mobile' and my next vehicle I buy will be well thought out. I don't have my van anymore, not a lot of people saw that, but it was cool, all decked out.
Anyhoo, hope everyone is well, and I look forward to getting back into the groove of things!
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Post by JediAmy on Apr 25, 2009 7:20:24 GMT -5
This has been way too long on my part........ ......... .... Anyway, to make an extremley long and ugly story short, I have been through a ton of nuts since the celebration in L.A. It was a kind of awakening for me. It wasn't just about Star Wars, I made it into a 3 week cross country trip, just me and my dog. See, I had a lot of thinking to do and decisions to make. ------------ --------- -ok, went back and read it, it gets long. Proceed at your own risk--------if you don't like knowing peoples personal stuff, stop here-------- --------- ---- The first half of my life was spent living for, and taking care of other people. I denied my true self. Had a lot of problems as a teen, suffer from depresion, anyway, long story short again, got pregnant at 17, married at 18, in order to "do the right thing", I did the right thing, what was expected of me, spent 20 years with my husband, raised two kids, and cared for my sick and elderly parents. When my mom passed in 2005, it sparked me. I couldnt die like her, with all those regrets, living like a stepford wife. Anyhoo, I continued to care for my father, struggling, but after my trip, and all my thinking, I couldnt do it anymore. I told my husband it was over (I had tried to end it some years before). We officially seperated in Sept 2007, right after our 20th. I cried out for help to my family to help me with my father. We ended up moving my dad down to Florida in April of last year, through all of this, I had lost my job in 2005 shortly after my mom passed, so by 2007 we were in dire financial straights. The house I grew up in and was supposed to live in was foreclosed on. I took an apartment with my oldest daughter and her girlfriend, while my younger daughter stayed with my ex. She eventually moved in with us, after she graduated, but it became too much.
I had since forged a relationship, with an incredible person, who helped me survive it all. I finally found work, and after a while, my, we'll call her my 'Imzadi", decided to be roommates. Anyhoo, the kids were on thier own, and I was off on my own, the ex.......... .well.... ........so, had lots of problems through all this.. Around Christmas, my hours started dwindling, new owners, management, bla bla, lost my job. At least I could collect unemployment. Then, my dad passed away Christmas day......... ....ya I know, just can't catch a break. Anyhoo, this is way longer than it should have been. If you've read this far, THANK YOU for listening. Again, long story short again, I lived half my life in a lie, denying my true self. That is done. I came out. Yes, I am gay. My brother is, one of my daughters is. I went through a lot of nuts the past two years, and I have missed my Star wars friends tremendously. My family has basically disowned me, I only have my daughter, friends and Star Wars family. Too caught up in my depression to even send an email. I'm trying to break that cycle. I won't mention this personal garbage again in the forums. If you'd like to talk, I'd be more than happy to chat off the boards. I need to get back to you guys. I never lost my passion for Star Wars and never will. It helps keep me going, but has got burried a little throught this. My van was totalled last summer and I have been driving the worst piece of crap ford ranger until now. Picked up a new car yesterday (new to me) and I need to start pimpin it out Star Wars style. I got the motorhome on the road, need to do some roof repair, but she is ready to hit the road somewhere. Motor City Comic Con is coming for in May here in Michigan. Thought about driving it down. Listen to me! I really do miss you guys! But I'm back........ ....oh and with a slight change in identity, lol. I am known as simply 'Obi' in my town. Started at the bar one night, had a lot to do with my braid....... ....... Obimama, thats me (although my license plate does say 'OBI'). (sorry ObiShawn) ok, I've made this way too long, hope I didn't bore anyone, lol. So.......... ......what' s new?! Anyone 'Twitter' besides me and ObiShawn? Peace, Obimama aka JediAmy
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Post by Darth Marmalade on Apr 26, 2009 0:33:56 GMT -5
Wow, it's been a rough coupla years for you! But it sounds like you've weathered it well. I can't imagine going through so many changes -- coming out was difficult enough for me as a teenager in the 1980s. The world has made a lot of progress since then, but it sounds like a lot of your family hasn't kept up, and I know that they're not unusual at all. Your Road Squadron buddies are here for you; I can't speak for everybody, but I've always found plenty of love and acceptance among sci-fi fandom. Feel free to email me, follow me on Twitter Darth Marmalade , and if you haven't already done, check out my Canadian wedding story at readersadvice.com/mmeade/wedding/wedhome.html MTFBWY!
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